Wednesday, August 30, 2006

Seasons Of Change


So many changes in the past few months. Life has had a lot of highs and lows. We've lost a few along the way and somehow we've managed to muddle through. It's been a long, long season. It's winding down now and we're into the dog days of summer. In less than a month we'll see a new season. Fall is my absolute favorite time of year here in Oklahoma. The trees and bushes go from green to yellow and then to orange and red. It's truly an incredible sight. The days remain warm but the nights are crisp. The evening sky is full of a million stars that look so close it seems you could touch them. Autumn brings a sense of inner peace for me and I don't know why. I just feel as though it's my time to recollect, ponder, and renew myself. When the weather cools some I'll begin to bake more and make chowders, stews, and soups. I'll fill the house with smells of cinnamon, hazelnut, and maple candles. I can hardly wait.

Friday, August 04, 2006

Thank you for the kind words of support. We're coping as well as we can and sticking together very closely. It's all we can do. Thanks again....

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Wednesday, August 02, 2006

It's 2:26 a.m. and I can't sleep. My mind is going in circles and I just can't seem to settle down. Okay my heart is breaking and I just can't seem to grasp what's happened to my family. My baby nephew was murdered Monday night. He was the only child of my stepbrother, Jimmy. Jimmy hasn't been a big part of his life because Jimmy is in prison and was moved from Utah to Arkansas. Jayden was 2 years old. He just turned 2 in May. His mother's boyfriend was babysitting him while his mother worked and he killed him. One version of what he told the police was, "The little fucker just wouldn't shut up so I killed him"... I just can't wrap my mind around that. He took this little boy and beat his head into a wall until he stopped screaming. Until he stopped moving.. Until he stopped breathing. What kind of a monster would do that? The sonofabitch is in police custody now but that won't bring Jayden back. My mom and stepdad were going to get Jayden for the holidays and they were so thrilled about that. That of course will never happen now. Instead they'll get to drive to Utah and watch as their baby grandson is lowered into a grave. They are in serious need of prayer. The whole family is in need. We'll pull through this because true to form, we're a family and we stick together. It just hurts really bad right now. Really, really bad.