Deep In A Hole

I really dislike Thursdays. It's a combination of things I think. It's my first day back to work after having a couple of days off. It begins way too early. It ends way too late. My breaks are a big joke. There. Complain. Whine. Pity. Wallow. I hate my job. There I said it. I hate my job because I inadvertently invited someone into that circle that has duped me (and others) in ways I won't even begin to speak about. A wolf in sheep's clothing. So while some may know some of it, they surely don't know the half of it. If they only knew.....But then again I don't care enough to tell them. I'm tired. I think I'll go watch tv.

Woof, Woof Baby

This is what my mother got for Valentine's Day. When his hair grows back he'll actually look like a Maltese.. :snicker:

Miles And Miles Away

My sister is in surgery as I type this. She's having a lumbar fusion done. Apparently it's a very long and tedious surgery. I hate being 1600 miles away from her but I especially hate it at a time like this. I want to be there damnit! Please think good thoughts for her recovery. Thanks...

Another Birthday To Celebrate

I send this greeting of love
And with it best wishes too
And I hope that this day
Was a happy one for you

In the year ahead I wish
Good things your day will bring
Health, happiness and good times
And the best of everything.....


Happy Birthday, sweet Shari.

Happy Birthday

Today is my first born's 15th birthday. I vividly remember the day he was born. Emerging into this world, he stared at me like he'd known me forever. His deep soulful eyes staring into mine as if to say, "I've always been a part of you.. It's nice to finally meet" He was the smallest of my three children and had a head full of wild black hair. The amazement and awe that we felt when we held him was overwhelming. Over the years he's brought us much joy. He is turning into a man before our eyes and the mother in me wants to hold fast to what little boy is left in him. The free soul in me realizes I have to let him spread his wings and fly. I thank my lucky stars that I've had the chance to have such a deep and thoughtful child in my life. Happy Birthday, Robert. I loved you then, I love you now and I'll love you always.

Memories Of Yesterday......Hopes For Tomorrow

Today I made myself a new cd from music I had on my computer. An odd mixture of music. Old and new. Every song I added evoked an emotion though. As the Carpenter's sang in harmony over my speakers I was taken back to childhood and my Summer vacations in Oregon. These songs remind me of times with my father. The drive from California to Oregon was a long one but we made a good time out of it. We'd push like mad to get to our favorite motel in Northern California that first day of travel. I'd blare the Carpenter's from the 8 track tape player in the car and sing along. He'd hum along and giggle every once in awhile. He hated that music and no doubt if he were alive today he'd still hate it. But he listened to it with good humor....for me. That fills me with happiness and fondness when I think back on those times. So many people have had tainted childhoods and while my own wasn't perfect it was happy enough to store a plethora of good memories in this mind of mine. So, as I hear the words floating out, "We've only just begun......" I smile the smile of that 9 or 10 year old girl and know that I've got enough good memories to last a lifetime.

Beauty Has A Price

I worked off and on for about 8 hours in our bedroom yesterday. I got it all done except for one wall and I still need to hang the sconces, window treatments and pictures. I like the feel the room has now but there are still so many things I'd like to change. However, until I find an extra two thousand dollars or so for some new furniture and carpeting I'm going to have to settle for what I have. All in all I'm pleased. I'm so sore today from bending, lifting, stooping, reaching, etc.. I'm sorely(literally) reminded that I'm not 25 anymore.

Awakening 

The Quest For Serenity

I'm in the process of redecorating our bedroom. This has taken more time than it ever should have. My goal is to create a space for us to retire to at night and feel a sense of peace and serenity. I've got all the supplies I need and have had them for quite some time. I bought yet another shade of beige/brown paint last night to cover the walls with. I know once I get to a certain point it will all begin to come together. The more I think about it the more I want to change in there. New furniture, new carpeting, etc.. Where does it begin and end? What started out to be a new comforter set has evolved into the makeover of the century. I just hope we get to enjoy our new bedroom before we're too old.

Our newest addition....Goldie 

She's got blue eyes.  

Uncle Sam And The State Of Oklahoma Can Bite My Butt.....

Mmmkay.. Tax appointment over. The hubster was running late coming in from work so I had to take the youngest with me to my appointment. No big deal because he's usually pretty good. Usually is the key word here. Tonight was the exception to that when I told him to sit and be quiet he gave me that glazed over look like a junky gets when you wave a bag of smack in front of them. He was out in the country and there were dogs. "MOM! They have dogs!" Sigh.. So.. he wasn't very still nor was he quiet. I wanted to snatch him bald headed at one point but knew it was a lost cause. He was just reacting to this coolness of being out in the wide open country. "Hey MOM! Nobody could hear me if I screamed out here right?" So.. we got through the taxes in a timely manner and despite having an absolute dump truck full of deductions, we barely came out ahead in our federal taxes and we owe the damn state money. A nice little chunk of change too! So.. Uncle Sam says, "Here's this nice little check for your federal taxes.. Then the state says, "gimme that check! How dare you think you'll get ahead!" Hehe.. Oh well.. I did leave there with a puppy..... She is awfully cute.

Stop The Insanity!!!

I have an appointment tonight with our tax consultant to get our taxes done. Every year it's the same old song and dance with me. I wait until the last possible moment and then I begin to dig for receipts, bills, etc... Why do I do this to myself? It's almost as if I enjoy the pressure. Ha! This year is a bit different from the others though. We doubled our income in 2005. I'm quite nervous about the outcome of that for some odd reason. Gone are the days of Earned Income Credit. Born are the days of going long form and using deductions. On a positive note we spent a king's ransom on medical needs. Surely to God this will help right? And we still have possession of those three children that technically eat like nine children. That is also a plus, no? This year I vow to save all my reciepts in one place and keep everything up to date. Yeah.. I surely will do that. Of course I say that every year.....