Saturday, May 27, 2006

Yesterday.......

I was just talking to a friend about our kids. We're both a little sad about how the years have flown by so quickly. I now have a 10th grader, a 7th grader and a 4th grader. I can vividly remember when my oldest was in kindergarten. That seems like such a lifetime ago. Such a happy lifetime.....There didn't seem to be drama or battles then. Maybe there was and I just don't remember it. But it's a time I choose to remember with fondness. It was before marital problems hit. It was before my illness hit. We had just moved into our new home and we had a newborn. Life was simple then. I miss those days.

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

LISA VAN O!!!!!!!!!!

EMAIL ME WOMAN!!! I lost all my contact info.

Friday, May 19, 2006

Loss

My friend lost her husband a few days ago. There are no words to heal the open wounds that she and her children feel. Only time will heal and leave them with the scars of life and love. Here's to a brighter day ahead and the sweetest of memories......

Beyond the door
There's peace I'm sure.
And I know there'll be no more... Tears in heaven

Awww!


We have kitties!

Monday, May 15, 2006

At one of the sites I read I noticed that the majority of women didn't have a great Mother's Day yesterday. Why is this? Do men feel cheated on Father's Day? Do we silently plot to make their father's day a less than memorable experience? Should we? Tell me this.. What is so damn hard about treating someone special for one day? Not even a whole day! Just a little part of it even. A friend of mine was talking about her upset and hurt over the lack of consideration she got yesterday.. She said she felt like an "after thought".. Wow.. that makes a lot of sense doesn't it? Although sometimes I think that would even be better than nothing at all. I dunno. I had a friend, male of course, say that Mother's Day was just an excuse for Hallmark to make money. I wanted to bitch slap him of course. Then again he doesn't have children and he rarely speaks to his mother. Anyway, the point of my post is this: No matter how small or how cheap, do something for the mother in your life. Be it your own mother, your wife, your grandmother, whatever! If you can't afford a card then do something nice for her. Take out the trash, rub her feet, mow the lawn, clean the house.. ANYTHING! Acting like it'll go away won't help it. Ignoring her only makes it worse. And worst of all............Don't tell her she's the reason the day went crappy! And just because you're over it don't ASSume that she is.

Sunday, May 07, 2006

Out Like A Fat Kid In Dodge Ball

Okay.. this isn't exactly the easiest thing for me to blog about.. It's something that's been bothering me for a few days. You know I sort of touched on it a while back.. The skinny is I belonged to a message board. There was some tension and a few smart assed comments made there between a few. All of the sudden the boards were closed. Well we all still had a place to go because someone had created backup boards. They made it look the exact same as our boards did except there were a few key players missing. Those women apparently went and started up a private board for themselves and left a lot of us out on our asses. Okay that hurt. I never did a damn thing to any of them to deserve that but whatever.. I guess I wasn't their cup of tea. So fast forward to a few days ago....I get this mass email from one of those women at the "new" boards stating they were going to give someone a surprise party or something. Someone accidentally included MY email address in that mix. Talk about feeling like the fat kid in dodge ball!!! OMG I was angry and yeah it made me cry. Well the guilty emailed me with an apology so ya know I can't really be mad at them. But it all made me feel very inadequate again. Lots of shit going on with work right now.. Major loss of income.. Fear, anxiety, resentment, anger.. And no bloody place to vent it and nobody who gives a flying shit. I'm not afraid to say it.. I miss my boards.

Saturday, May 06, 2006

Full Of It

And just because I have lots on my mind today I'll blog again.....

Online Love Affairs. What's your opinion on them? As a rule I tend to think they're dangerous and very deceitful. Of course I've been on the shitty end of one of those so maybe that's why my opinion isn't very positive. I mean really though.. Someone sits and talks to someone for hours and hours, night after night. What do they really learn about that person inside that box? They learn what that person wants them to know. And let's face it folks we can be whoever we want to be on here. There's nobody holding us accountable for telling the truth about who we really are. So while someone is claiming to be the answer to every prayer, are they really? The beauty of it is, the truth does reveal itself eventually. Sometimes people actually marry and it goes spendidly. Sometimes it tears families apart and breaks hearts. It's really something to make ya think isn't it? So if you're one of those people you may want to really think about things. You honestly never really know who you're speaking to until you've had time to be around that person and see it with your own eyes. Now while I'm not dissing those I know who have found love online I am saying that it's not for me and I would never want my children to travel such an avenue to find a mate. I guess there are some things in life that I'll never change my mind about.

That Is So Jr High...Grow The Hell Up!

Was talking to a friend of mine this morning.. We were discussing cruises and I made mention that I was invited to go on a cruise down to Cozumel and Belize. He in turn said that he and his wife were saving at this very moment to go on a cruise to Jamaica. Very cool eh? He said they had the money for the cruise but needed to save about the same amount for "other" things.. Other things? Like scuba diving right? Or wind surfing! Yeah!! Uh...no.. Like drinks on board for him and his ghetto ass wife needs to score some "Ganja" while down on the islands. Looooooeeeeeoooossssserrrrrrrrrs! Grow the hell up! Forty plus years old and they are about as responsible as my 15 year old. No.. I think my 15 year old has them beat. They make about 120K a year and it's just the two of them and they struggle with money.. Why you ask? Booze and ganja. Jesus, I had to almost bite my tongue in half to keep from saying something snarky to him. Don't sit there and bitch about how the man has you down when all you're gonna do is drink shots of whiskey and watch your fat ass loser of a wife smoke dope. Yeah I know.. none of my bidness but he brought it up and I have an opinion. I realize that I have NO tolerance for drug addicts and alcoholics. Talk amongst yourselves.....

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

Profound

A very good friend of mine summed things up nicely last night.. Her words made me giggle and nod in agreement. I have a case of the "Idon'tgiveashits" LOL! So true!

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Is This All There Is?

I'm bored.. Bored with the internet. One can only read cnn and blogs for so long before the boredom sets in. More and more lately I've been content with spending my evenings with a good tv show instead of being online. Maybe I'm just outgrowing a few things? I don't know.. I'm disenchanted.. I do know that. People are not what they seem. This is something I've known for years yet it seems to be a lesson I relearn over and over again. Maybe it's me? Maybe I'm expecting too much. Maybe I'm given too much and don't appreciate it? Peh.. I think I'll go take a nap.