Out Like A Fat Kid In Dodge Ball

Okay.. this isn't exactly the easiest thing for me to blog about.. It's something that's been bothering me for a few days. You know I sort of touched on it a while back.. The skinny is I belonged to a message board. There was some tension and a few smart assed comments made there between a few. All of the sudden the boards were closed. Well we all still had a place to go because someone had created backup boards. They made it look the exact same as our boards did except there were a few key players missing. Those women apparently went and started up a private board for themselves and left a lot of us out on our asses. Okay that hurt. I never did a damn thing to any of them to deserve that but whatever.. I guess I wasn't their cup of tea. So fast forward to a few days ago....I get this mass email from one of those women at the "new" boards stating they were going to give someone a surprise party or something. Someone accidentally included MY email address in that mix. Talk about feeling like the fat kid in dodge ball!!! OMG I was angry and yeah it made me cry. Well the guilty emailed me with an apology so ya know I can't really be mad at them. But it all made me feel very inadequate again. Lots of shit going on with work right now.. Major loss of income.. Fear, anxiety, resentment, anger.. And no bloody place to vent it and nobody who gives a flying shit. I'm not afraid to say it.. I miss my boards.